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It has been a good weekend. Grief for Luca still hangs like a shadow. It is not the day-to-day absence that aches; it is remembering that this is forever. I think of the shape of his velvety ear, or the endearing joyful loyalty in his eyes, and my heart clenches, and the tears come. ButContinue reading “Seasons of bounty”

Today was the first day waking up without Luca. Last night, I carried his collar to bed with me. I still needed his presence to be held within the pack. And this morning, we all awoke to a new day. Lizzie slept on one of Luca’s beds part of the night, but when I wokeContinue reading “The first day of the rest of our lives”

This is a draft, which i will force myself to “publish” when i get tired, rather than letting it sit in drafts forever. Be kind. Luca has been our “old man” for a while now. He began to slow down a bit over a year ago, and I had the bright idea to get himContinue reading “Saying Goodbye to Luca”

Up front by our driveway we have an old locust; it’s probably been there since the house was built, I suspect, which would put it about 70 years old. It has had a growing hollow space in its trunk for a few years. It was, actually, a bit charming. All it wanted was a brightlyContinue reading “Goodbye to the Old Locust”

There is a comic published by The Oatmeal some time ago, about how happiness is a fundamentally flawed concept, because it attempts to apply a permanence to an emotional state that is (as all emotional states are) transitory. One could feel bliss, or joy, or contentment, in a moment. Towards the end, the author discussesContinue reading “Synonyms for Happiness”

I wrote about my dinner adventure, specifically, but there is more to say about this weekend! Saturday morning, Erik and I slept late. As in, almost missed the morning! But then we awoke to play happy homestead. When we tore down the old fence, we saved all the wood, to use on scrap and gardenContinue reading “Weekend Recap: March 1, 2025”

On the menu at L’s kitchen is “Chef Lawrence’s Chicken”. I am not one to order chicken at a restaurant. It’s fine, usually, but never that interesting or spectacular. But I dream of Chef’s Chicken. White wine, mushrooms, chicken, and cream. Flavorful, and simple, but simple like an artist that knows how to draw aContinue reading “Not The Chef’s Chicken”

What a strange time. One of the things I’ve always considered an important fact about me is that I feel like Social Media and I grew up together. AOL instant messenger in middle school. Livejournal in high school. Facebook in college, and into adulthood. My social life has always been tied to the internet. I’veContinue reading “Realignment”

Erik and I have been together long enough now that the rhythms of our annual rituals are recognizable. After Christmas is a time of a renewal of energy and focus. Each year, we spend January and February refining the way our house serves the mission. Today, we cleaned the dining room, living room, and kitchenContinue reading “Season of renewal”